Wind and Waves pt. 5

I really don’t have anything to talk about.  I am still looking at this wind and waves thing.  Right now I have nothing new.

Wind and Waves pt. 4

Shoe asked a good question on my last post that go me thinking and reading.  What causes the wind and waves.  The wind is caused by pressures of air that collide together and the direction is dependant on the Earths rotation.  The wind blows stronger and faster when the high and low pressure of the air comes closer together. Wind can also be thought of one way that the atmosphere moves excess heat around. All wind is, directly or indirectly, helping to transport heat either away from the surface of the Earth, where sunlight causes an excess of energy buildup, or from warm regions (usually the tropics) to cooler regions (usually the higher latitudes). 

Waves are caused by wind that blows and creates friction against the surface of the water.  Waves can also be cause by under water activity, like an erupting volcano or a shift in the earths surface which actually cause the biggest waves (tsunamis).  Waves are largest out in open water and then slow down and shrink when they get closer to the surface. 

As I started looking at this stuff some spiritual lessons were just obvious to me and still others I am asking Dad to reveal.

Wind and Waves pt. 3

Well I am trying to find the Spiritual difference between the wind and waves.  You probably cant have one without the other in terms of the physical, at least out on sea.  Once again though there are verses that reference one and not the other.  Sometimes the wind is a good thing others it is not.  Sometimes the waves are good and others they only cause destruction and need to be told to quit.  What is the difference with them?  Is there one?  How does this pertain to our lives?  I am still looking but today these are the questions I have.  I have read a lot in scripture today about this subject but it only leads to more questions that I don’t have answers to yet.

Wind and Waves pt. 2

I am still studying on wind and waves through Mk 4, 6 and 8 and the other Gospels with these stories in them.  I am learning more and more about what the wind and waves look like.  I have attributed to much to the enemy when God is the one doing it.  I try to cast things out and off and away and quiet things that the Lord is doing.  I am looking at distinguishing the different winds as well.  Some of the winds God quieted and calmed, others He payed no attention to.  Some winds were not good, others are.  Heb. 1:7 makes the wind sound good but Eph. 4, Mt. 7 and Lk 8 make the wind sounds bad or at least a contributing factor of bad.  What wind is good and what is bad?  How do I distinguish between the 2?  Do I even worry about any of it and focus any attention on it at all?

Wind and Waves

I read in John 6.  Jesus sent out the disciples on the boat and He went into the mountains because the people were going to come and MAKE Him king, and He didn’t want that.  The sea is going off all around the disciples they are freaking out, Jesus is walking on water…..again (show off).  He gets in the boat and they immediately show up on shore.  God began to show me how many times I have given credit to the enemy when really it was God doing things.  Mark 4, 6 and 8 are the 3 boat experiences with the wind and waves.  God is the one who made that stuff happen so e could reteach the disciples and train them and show them who He really is.  I also realized how many times I quiet the wind and waves because I can and I miss Jesus.  The disciples are worried about the things outside and miss Jesus sleeping or walking on water.  Too many times I use my authority out of pride or just out of being a man and I miss Jesus in the middle of everything.  Jesus didn’t focus on the wind and the waves in this story at all, never even a concern to Him.  He got in the boat and knew exactly where they were going, the other side, and as soon as He was in the boat immediately they arrived.  He got to where He was going without talking to the storm around Him.  Jesus told the disciples when He put them in the boat they were going to the other side, so they knew that was their destination and yet when the storm happened they got scared even though God told them where they were going and that they would make it there.  They forgot the other times God saved them from the wind and waves.  Yet Jesus never mentioned it or quieted it.  Don’t forget where God told you to go.  Don’t focus anymore on the storms around you.  If God said this is where you are going, than you will make it there alive.  Stop speaking to the wind and waves all the time and focus on Jesus right in the middle of everything.

Divorce and Adultery

Shoe and I this morning were looking at the passage in Mt. 5 that talks about divorce.  Lets get some discussion on what this actually means.  God hates divorce but gives a qualifying statement to it here?  Interesting.  On a larger scale though I started looking at why we have believed what we have in the past.  What else might we not be understanding clearly about? 

Quest was good.  7 were saved and I think every man pressed in as much as they knew how they did a great job.  Kennth Wayne Eldredge did an incredible job administrating this event as well as ministry to the men.  Ben you have some competition at your heels.  I was very impressed and happy to see where he was in this process.

Nadda pt. 4

Nothing again.  This time its a little different because I got out of my mood, I think, and I woke up a little more excited to see what we were doing today.  I woke up and grabbed a git fiddle and played a little worship songs, than I journaled some thoughts and feeling down, mostly about marriage and Kimbos family who we had dinner with on Sat night (they are screwed up).  I read a couple of different things in the Bible and also read in a book I am reading, “The Greatest Salesman in the World.”  Nadda.  It was all good just nothing really stood out or hit me or was interesting or anything.  So I guess same as the last couple days except this time I was looking for something.

Nadda pt. 3

Well same as the last couple days, except today I think God is taking me out of why.  I have been asking a lot of questions about this weekend and Kimbo and her parents and work….etc.  For some reason I keep trying to place a reason on God.  I keep putting Him in a box and giving an answer as to what He is doing.  The age old question of why do bad things happen?  Its our first inclination to put a reason on it.  God doesn’t have to give an account to why.  God’s ways are higher than mine so are His thoughts.  I can even say the reason God does “bad things” is to teach us or get glory or to help someone else learn, but even that is just putting an answer to what God is doing when I have no clue how He works most of the time.  So today has been a lot of the same as the past couple days just with a better understanding that I don’t understand…..man that pisses me off.

Nadda Pt. 2

So things are really going poorly for Kimbo and her family.  Big stuff happened this weekend and the past couple days that is “ripping the family apart”.  Kimbo is upset and frustrated and very hurt, which in turns make me upset and frustrated (yes even more than I was yesterday) and hurt for her.  I read Marshall’s post from yesterday and thought back and saw that I did ask God what to do.  I even encouraged the others to do that.  As far I remember along every step of the way I asked what to do and how to do it.  In light of all that I woke up this morning and started to read a Psalms (because that’s what you do when you don’t know what to read and you need encouragement).  Half way in to some random Psalms I got even more upset, so I stopped everything and for about 55 min I just sat there and wrote questions and asked God for some things.  No reading, no worship (in what we call worship), and no praying (in the fact I didn’t close my eyes and say Jesus or Lord or God 40+ times).  I don’t want to go on Quest next week because I have way to friggin much to do but Dick and Pops said I have to.  All of this is just more stuff added on to what is “normally” going on.  I will get through this and God has given me everything I need to survive this feeling and frustration, but yesterday and today I don’t feel like it.  As soon as I am ready to snap out and just move on I will and it will be incredible what God has done for me the past week or so.  I just don’t think I will snap out of it today.  I am not depressed or angry with God or anybody so I don’t think you guys need to “come to my rescue” or anything like that.  I just need some time to chill out and process all of this mess and begin to hear what direction to go with everything.

P.S.  I am tired of this blog site and the same ole same ole…..so now I am pissed at that.

Nadda

This morning I woke up frustrated and tired.  Ill tell you why.  This past weekend was kind of hard I think for the 4 of us.  For those that don’t know let me tell you part of our story.  It started with all the flights being full on Wed. night except for 4, one at 6:30 2 at 6:35 and one at 6:45.  So we get to the airport at 5 a.m.  We put our names on the list because they are free tickets (thank you God) but they are stand by.  We didn’t make the 6:30 and by the time we found that out the other 2 were already boarded and loaded, yes the other 2 because one of those flights were cancelled which put more bodies on less airplanes.  We put our names on every friggin list to go anywhere near L.A.  Kimbo and I finally get on one that is going to El Paso (because that is the nearest place you could get that wasn’t already sold out).  Zsanae finally gets on one like 3 hours later.  Marshall doesn’t get on one till 9:20 that night.  Which means we all sat at an airport for over 16 hours that day.  We finally have to buy Marshall a ticket into El Crapo, I mean El Paso.  So there is an extra 200 hundred dollars gone.  He gets in at 10:40ish and we rent a car to drive the next 12 hours to L.A. That’s another 600 hundred dollars because of the drop off fee.  We drive all through the night.  We get into L.A. and 10:30 or something and we have to go get our bags at LAX because they did get on that early flight.  We rent a hotel room that has continental breakfast and a heated pool and jacuzzi and a sky bar.  Well continental breakfast was 12.95, and the pool and spa and bar were ALL under construction.  The parking garage they had was also under construction (they failed to mention that as well) so we have to pay 20+ dollars a day just to valet our car every day.  We just never really recovered from all of that.  I felt as though at one time someone was frustrated at someone else the whole time.  3 of us would be OK and one would be tired or pissy or something.  We never really got any good sleep and we tried to fit in 3 days into a day and a half.  The whole weekend was much more expensive than any of us planned or have the money for, and we didn’t even get all that accommodations we thought would be provided.  I woke up this morning after yesterday coming home to 4 different manuals/time-lines that need to be written on top of the 218 emails I missed out on.  Today I woke up upset and trying to figure out what the heck God was doing.  Everything before Friday fell into place perfectly.  Free plane tickets, the Laker game tickets were a screw up on eBay’s side so those were really cheap.  The hotel was cheap and great (when we looked it up).  The fact the flight got moved to earlier was awesome, more time to hang out in L.A.  So, everything looked to be going smoothly and then this.  Plus work.  Plus this next Quest (that I don’t want to do anymore).  Plus I just took a diamond in to get fitted on a setting last week and all my money is gone for that (Don’t tell Kimbo, she doesn’t know).  This morning I didn’t read, I worshipped……some.  Mostly I griped and complained and asked God for a lot of thing.  I will be honest, I know the best thing to do is go back and spend some time with Him differently than I did this morning, but as long as I am being honest…..I wont.  Ill finish work today go to the ring shop to approve the setting that I have payed for, go home and do nothing.  Maybe have a cigar and a drink or something tonight or tomorrow night.